my heart is tired, really...

I like to think I'm relatively good at taking care of other people. I listen, I encourage, I give good hugs and I have wide shoulders. I try my darndest to make time, I make people laugh and I fix problems. I try my best to keep my spirits up, I give way and I close one eye alot of times- sometimes two. I let people take advantage of me knowingly and I know sometimes my insane schedule gets the better of me, but I do do my best to do what needs to be done.

The last few weeks have been rough. More than I can bear sometimes.
So, apologies to whom it may concern: I need to take care of me now.
Others will just have to wait.


If You Want Me To (By Ginny Owens)

The pathway is broken
And the signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason why you brought me here
But just because you love me the way that you do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If you want me to

'Cause I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise you're not through with me yet
So if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will go through the fire
If you want me to

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But you never said it would be easy
You only said I'll never go alone

So when the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear you answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering your love put you through
And I will go through the valley
If you want me to