tired.

Just really need some rest. Some semblance of sanity, peace and good-ole alone-time. I don't want to have to deal with excuses, stupid people or the overwhelming barrage of new projects, current works-in-progress and the million other things that need my attention. I don't want to hear empty promises that are there simply to mollify me for the while, hoping that once the episode passes I'd forget. I rarely forget. There seems to always be more important things, more pressing things, things with sacred deadlines that take precedence over me: my health, my spirit, my needs. I tired of having to be responsible and perfect. To do the adult thing and be understanding, be reasonable, be rational, to be ok with always putting people's needs ahead of mine; and still smile and grit my teeth and say its ok. I'm tired; and sick of people pretending they know what's best for me, telling me its important for me to pace myself, to take a break. I know what I want and what I need to do- being able to do it is a whole other matter.

For those of you that have been my refuge- you know who you are- thanks. God blessed me richly with friends like you.
For the rest, just leave me alone for a while ok? This girl is tired.